becomes an industry
and industry stops being
a quality, like virtue
when the concept of virtue
doesn’t make much sense
when sense is marketed
to us for money
when money becomes
a goal in its own right
when some have rights
and the rest something else
you are something else.
Your hospitality
is more important than
your spelling.
Overaching
T- d rails the rushing scent
Sound of gull wheels fin e
Gers in water th. Oughtful
Lady ailments her bod is décor
A shun scars and wheeling away
Holds out two wrists wit
H bloud bomb how light peels
From shade oh boxed c. off
In a day time night mare mixed
To be gin to ne water no tes ring
Release sump shone on castling
brook. strings on a apple violin
Sound of gull wheels fin e
Gers in water th. Oughtful
Lady ailments her bod is décor
A shun scars and wheeling away
Holds out two wrists wit
H bloud bomb how light peels
From shade oh boxed c. off
In a day time night mare mixed
To be gin to ne water no tes ring
Release sump shone on castling
brook. strings on a apple violin
Deepwalker
the day is a drum that connects
these vocal loops
with grey traffic circles
bridge after bridge
as u know we look for u
in the park the terse
wood under trippers light
are spawning sharp thighs
shafts and cunts melting
in the firs' limbs
gossip surrounds you
wish to start our conversation off
and start another wish you'd
come back and clean up this town
the wind rises
smoking holds feelings down
drinking retards this movement
in the chest i cry in bed
walk steep tracks in the dry spells
there is no why
they can articulate
that is more than running water
care for me
the living hold each other
and philosophy falls
out of all our mouths
while by the lakeside
trees fuck in the storm
almost nobody else sees
these vocal loops
with grey traffic circles
bridge after bridge
as u know we look for u
in the park the terse
wood under trippers light
are spawning sharp thighs
shafts and cunts melting
in the firs' limbs
gossip surrounds you
wish to start our conversation off
and start another wish you'd
come back and clean up this town
the wind rises
smoking holds feelings down
drinking retards this movement
in the chest i cry in bed
walk steep tracks in the dry spells
there is no why
they can articulate
that is more than running water
care for me
the living hold each other
and philosophy falls
out of all our mouths
while by the lakeside
trees fuck in the storm
almost nobody else sees
An Argument
Crazy. We’re all insane
individually, in groups
inside our languages
as a species. It’s inbuilt.
We’re in up to the hilt
and this makes us prejudiced.
Besides, it’s so complex
and these mental models
we exchange each time we speak
are approximations
we use to justify or to guess
all predicated on the inherent
value of our own
survival. Beyond that
you may teach yourself to see
but the feelings
the feelings will always be
irrational and come from the body
you in your precious carbon form
and conscious magically.
Physical reality exists
certainly, we’re part of it
and we have our systems
of thought we put so much work
into them and their implications
and they’re vital and stunning
and enlightened and pragmatic
and insane. Keep fighting,
keep trying, keep improving
but first, accept this.
individually, in groups
inside our languages
as a species. It’s inbuilt.
We’re in up to the hilt
and this makes us prejudiced.
Besides, it’s so complex
and these mental models
we exchange each time we speak
are approximations
we use to justify or to guess
all predicated on the inherent
value of our own
survival. Beyond that
you may teach yourself to see
but the feelings
the feelings will always be
irrational and come from the body
you in your precious carbon form
and conscious magically.
Physical reality exists
certainly, we’re part of it
and we have our systems
of thought we put so much work
into them and their implications
and they’re vital and stunning
and enlightened and pragmatic
and insane. Keep fighting,
keep trying, keep improving
but first, accept this.
Closing the System
the pakeha tikanga
with pins
and lightest nets
trawling computers
for your information
genus, order
family name -
The new century's
fascism is
mild - wisely
you're a better human
Resource
when you will
willingly wear
numbers
and this fashion of
static wings
with pins
and lightest nets
trawling computers
for your information
genus, order
family name -
The new century's
fascism is
mild - wisely
you're a better human
Resource
when you will
willingly wear
numbers
and this fashion of
static wings
b.order/line
this is the event of fire.
sleeping in
town and the roof is phat with birds.
it is a very dogged
lust that wolves us
lying beside u
feels in motion
like the photo of a fall
the language body seethes
u make me nerve us
u
come a bit close
r
desire's a pleasure
that erases
evidence of its own fullness
danger sharpens the attention
i love because u r
mined
this is a stroke of the heart.
your context is coming loose
i am an object
with feelings
increase yourself to my needs
sleeping in
town and the roof is phat with birds.
it is a very dogged
lust that wolves us
lying beside u
feels in motion
like the photo of a fall
the language body seethes
u make me nerve us
u
come a bit close
r
desire's a pleasure
that erases
evidence of its own fullness
danger sharpens the attention
i love because u r
mined
this is a stroke of the heart.
your context is coming loose
i am an object
with feelings
increase yourself to my needs
Revolution
Diversions turn
you into something else.
Time rolls
into a ditch
and all that’s left
is a cupboard full
of half-finished projects.
We secure the future
with mighty words.
We hold the past down
to keep it from hurting anyone.
- oh my god -
live with me here
in this quiet outpost
we’ll be self-sufficient
in our pleasures, all our joys
locally sourced
Peace bleaches the spirit
into incandescence
and I practise compassion.
I practise and practise
and may slowly be improving
or could just be
hiding my vulnerabilities
better, living in comfort
so can afford now, to be sweet.
Morality starts from intuition
and walks backward
justifying itself.
In lieu of emergency
I place attention
on what emerges
and try to learn to love.
you into something else.
Time rolls
into a ditch
and all that’s left
is a cupboard full
of half-finished projects.
We secure the future
with mighty words.
We hold the past down
to keep it from hurting anyone.
- oh my god -
live with me here
in this quiet outpost
we’ll be self-sufficient
in our pleasures, all our joys
locally sourced
Peace bleaches the spirit
into incandescence
and I practise compassion.
I practise and practise
and may slowly be improving
or could just be
hiding my vulnerabilities
better, living in comfort
so can afford now, to be sweet.
Morality starts from intuition
and walks backward
justifying itself.
In lieu of emergency
I place attention
on what emerges
and try to learn to love.
Heaps of loads of loads of heaps
Around here we don’t say: I like what you did.
Bloodflow and block compete
to make such a well-articulated river
which I call your aesthetic.
Our culture is so stilted
and with sticks on the end of each finger,
we’re struggling even to touch.
The muscle tone of the language lost definition.
Speaking sounds funny with a wooden mouth.
The love we get has a gutter cough,
ripped out pages, lines demarcating
areas of shame: nothing too full, direct or detailed
is the local rule of thumb for love.
Feeling self-conscious in meanings that used
to fit, the house is a dense
semiotic battle switched off at the seams,
the community’s worn right through
in patches and you consider whether
to abandon it all by the side of the road
or put in a whole new motor.
There’s depth to such meaty living,
knowing what it is to eat and be eaten.
There’s no bombs here, yet,
yet the white people tend to stick together.
The cars, trees, honey, the children bitter.
Even the dust in the corners is shattered.
Such stupidly ugly streets.
Bloodflow and block compete
to make such a well-articulated river
which I call your aesthetic.
Our culture is so stilted
and with sticks on the end of each finger,
we’re struggling even to touch.
The muscle tone of the language lost definition.
Speaking sounds funny with a wooden mouth.
The love we get has a gutter cough,
ripped out pages, lines demarcating
areas of shame: nothing too full, direct or detailed
is the local rule of thumb for love.
Feeling self-conscious in meanings that used
to fit, the house is a dense
semiotic battle switched off at the seams,
the community’s worn right through
in patches and you consider whether
to abandon it all by the side of the road
or put in a whole new motor.
There’s depth to such meaty living,
knowing what it is to eat and be eaten.
There’s no bombs here, yet,
yet the white people tend to stick together.
The cars, trees, honey, the children bitter.
Even the dust in the corners is shattered.
Such stupidly ugly streets.
The Unit
Privacy can turn to
privation of the heart
and you forget how to get
together the courage
to negotiate daily
with these warm, chaotic
inscrutable others.
Alone, your stories
make a strict sense
and all flavours
can be mixed
to go with bitterness.
privation of the heart
and you forget how to get
together the courage
to negotiate daily
with these warm, chaotic
inscrutable others.
Alone, your stories
make a strict sense
and all flavours
can be mixed
to go with bitterness.
storming in
We wait and work and watch
and wait for the lightning to hit.
The charm pours down onto the ground
and the ants drown.
We’re drunk on convenience
and the speed with which we shift
between identities / desires.
Our skin slackens with spirit’s
disappointments.
The poignant minute
poised as you brushed my cheek
with your fingertips catches
up with me in the middle of the night.
It webs me in a feeling I have
to rehearse till I get its name right
I run short of time
and these moments pile up and
I can see now
this is what aging means.
That, and falling from worlds
I thought defined me.
The role can’t hold us
still in time, any more than
the power of love or the photograph.
I can’t compete.
My heart is just an organ, my dreams
the way I process in my sleep.
Our dramas warm us
and we heat the earth
(we don’t like to talk about that yet)
and wait for the lightning to hit.
The charm pours down onto the ground
and the ants drown.
We’re drunk on convenience
and the speed with which we shift
between identities / desires.
Our skin slackens with spirit’s
disappointments.
The poignant minute
poised as you brushed my cheek
with your fingertips catches
up with me in the middle of the night.
It webs me in a feeling I have
to rehearse till I get its name right
I run short of time
and these moments pile up and
I can see now
this is what aging means.
That, and falling from worlds
I thought defined me.
The role can’t hold us
still in time, any more than
the power of love or the photograph.
I can’t compete.
My heart is just an organ, my dreams
the way I process in my sleep.
Our dramas warm us
and we heat the earth
(we don’t like to talk about that yet)
On Core
When I recall that you’re going to die,
I cry. Poetry has wrecked me from an early age,
drawing circles of loss and mortal business.
On the page it can all get held in the same taste.
My heart burns. Soon the heart stops.
The lines make visible the patterns
of your desires to knowing strangers.
I’m so full of love, feelings spill clouded colour
all over polite conversation. Tidal response, moods,
structural mysteries. You are like hot water in winter.
The ones I love derail vigilant ordering.
They play in the cold, hard fact.
Engagement is the stable ground of trust.
Some times we need to ask, at others to protect.
when the nothing is come, a kind word,
a soft strong touch, in the hope
the intention will spin up some luck
I met you. The love sets in.
I will die, and you’ll have to tell your deep mind,
that asks after me, that you can’t satisfy.
Here is a hunger you’ll have
to live with, like an ex-gambler,
starting fresh each day, but worse.
Maybe you’ll find God then,
the one who’ll never leave you,
and if you feel lost, then the answer is to know
the system has it all covered.
As long as we are able to we’ll keep this thing
afloat
I cry. Poetry has wrecked me from an early age,
drawing circles of loss and mortal business.
On the page it can all get held in the same taste.
My heart burns. Soon the heart stops.
The lines make visible the patterns
of your desires to knowing strangers.
I’m so full of love, feelings spill clouded colour
all over polite conversation. Tidal response, moods,
structural mysteries. You are like hot water in winter.
The ones I love derail vigilant ordering.
They play in the cold, hard fact.
Engagement is the stable ground of trust.
Some times we need to ask, at others to protect.
when the nothing is come, a kind word,
a soft strong touch, in the hope
the intention will spin up some luck
I met you. The love sets in.
I will die, and you’ll have to tell your deep mind,
that asks after me, that you can’t satisfy.
Here is a hunger you’ll have
to live with, like an ex-gambler,
starting fresh each day, but worse.
Maybe you’ll find God then,
the one who’ll never leave you,
and if you feel lost, then the answer is to know
the system has it all covered.
As long as we are able to we’ll keep this thing
afloat
black crow n
I told a story that was funny and cruel
words pulling each other further out over
the comic distortions are tragic in the flesh
- images made real for you
by this magic
the hunchback hitching into town
finds a unicorn lying down in the long grass
its eye rolling
he approaches slowly
hears my words rushing by like traffic
he holds the creature
where the truck
broke it
and for the first time
feels a real fear for this planet
words pulling each other further out over
the comic distortions are tragic in the flesh
- images made real for you
by this magic
the hunchback hitching into town
finds a unicorn lying down in the long grass
its eye rolling
he approaches slowly
hears my words rushing by like traffic
he holds the creature
where the truck
broke it
and for the first time
feels a real fear for this planet
St. Colette
My lids reflect the gaze back in.
I don’t feel a thing
but the residue of your skin.
Listen. The ocean keeps exploding
a storming display of work, all for
a few rocks cracked open a step
closer to sand
Amongst all this, I find my
way back to your lips
and the energy shuttling between us
breaking waves the symptoms
of deeper wilder wider movements
power crashing onto each other’s
shores
my weakness
against this is comforting
- it wants for nothing
mindnight
The police pull roses from a boy's mouth.
Access is granted to extreme tikanga
only when all the words have been gathered.
We multiply signs;
they get their own vivacious life,
turn vicious when the evening's ending
complaining that they're still not loved enough.
Dictate a pleasure dragon.
Sensation writes out bodies in code.
This mood is a whole new map we come to in
in which we learn to find systems.
I accelerate from the last letters,
you try going backwards thinking of art films,
when the trees lift off the screen we're stuck in
something has worked. Lose the knack
start over, walking South like you did
last time, forgetting it all, left eye on the rocks
staring through as if in far distances
and going so slow that you cup your breath.
When we're inside this luxury
with the lights on, concentration's magic:
the inflated city inside molecules
holds us right off the ground.
Access is granted to extreme tikanga
only when all the words have been gathered.
We multiply signs;
they get their own vivacious life,
turn vicious when the evening's ending
complaining that they're still not loved enough.
Dictate a pleasure dragon.
Sensation writes out bodies in code.
This mood is a whole new map we come to in
in which we learn to find systems.
I accelerate from the last letters,
you try going backwards thinking of art films,
when the trees lift off the screen we're stuck in
something has worked. Lose the knack
start over, walking South like you did
last time, forgetting it all, left eye on the rocks
staring through as if in far distances
and going so slow that you cup your breath.
When we're inside this luxury
with the lights on, concentration's magic:
the inflated city inside molecules
holds us right off the ground.
Hitch
They pushed the beds together
- you keep pulling your dog mind back.
The earth opened a wound
and your dog just wants to drink and drink
Thinking it was menopause
you went for some space
leaving them alone in your house
your tane and your guest
and they were meant to be singles but
they pushed the beds
I'm riding with you in your car.
You're on your way to where the criminals are
and though it is clear that you would rather
be talking about the weather
- they pushed the beds together
they pushed the beds
and your hurting mess
of a dog
can't make sense
of its own appetite.
- you keep pulling your dog mind back.
The earth opened a wound
and your dog just wants to drink and drink
Thinking it was menopause
you went for some space
leaving them alone in your house
your tane and your guest
and they were meant to be singles but
they pushed the beds
I'm riding with you in your car.
You're on your way to where the criminals are
and though it is clear that you would rather
be talking about the weather
- they pushed the beds together
they pushed the beds
and your hurting mess
of a dog
can't make sense
of its own appetite.
Fai[th/al]lure
motor.cross.dress
cure my insecturity
"it" is all about me, staring
in thru curtain cracks.
I'm scared you'll reduce me to how u read me
every heart fails
your tears get me wet
I was high and I saw that ethics
can't compete. Give generously in
There is no communication, only crestfelling
ritual transmission of effect enjointment
all day i thought nothing at all.
was wrong
nothing hurts here, and so bad
it pushes ajar my jaws -
survival blossoms meaning
Plastic exploits us, provides
for ever more efficient categories.
the plotline of a cigarette
begins when i lit it: stable, satifsying,
tragic
we burn down towards our bad ends.
cure my insecturity
"it" is all about me, staring
in thru curtain cracks.
I'm scared you'll reduce me to how u read me
every heart fails
your tears get me wet
I was high and I saw that ethics
can't compete. Give generously in
There is no communication, only crestfelling
ritual transmission of effect enjointment
all day i thought nothing at all.
was wrong
nothing hurts here, and so bad
it pushes ajar my jaws -
survival blossoms meaning
Plastic exploits us, provides
for ever more efficient categories.
the plotline of a cigarette
begins when i lit it: stable, satifsying,
tragic
we burn down towards our bad ends.
being / longing
All this sexual tension
between the earth and sky
saturates my day with pornographic
feelings, inside the lightning field
generated by their dancing.
No wonder we can’t concentrate
falling into pools
of their post-orgasmic sleep
emerging years later, older
without ambition, time for once
absent from our mouths.
I love you
with some of the love
thick and clear, that slides
between their long glances.
Stand between them
or feel excluded
be like a piece of air
moving between them
right into lungs,
into cells, into skin
with me.
between the earth and sky
saturates my day with pornographic
feelings, inside the lightning field
generated by their dancing.
No wonder we can’t concentrate
falling into pools
of their post-orgasmic sleep
emerging years later, older
without ambition, time for once
absent from our mouths.
I love you
with some of the love
thick and clear, that slides
between their long glances.
Stand between them
or feel excluded
be like a piece of air
moving between them
right into lungs,
into cells, into skin
with me.
Pauanui (Paradise)
Ride white lines
that travel down tarseal
to retire under blue
and emerald mountains.
Wetlands are preserved
so we can enjoy
the uncompromised habitat.
White. White. It’s a haven.
Everything we eat
is from the store
and the jetskis roar
this is what land is for:
an abstract use
taking up slack energy
we needed when we
were still animals.
I’ve educated myself
into a corner.
Money’s disproportions
swell the power of our house.
The hills here are fantastical.
They make the playground
look crazy
even though it’s not
the plastic trash
growing up in council flats
- even the perfectly smooth
cement of the skatepark
(hardly tagged)
can’t compete.
In this bright white light
rich people are nice
when they go by on bikes
in their biplanes
on the golf course
walking their spoilt
dogs and kids.
The wives seem nervous –
what a waste
of privilege.
It’s so comforting
like health, easy to forget
when you’ve got it
and the destitute drink
gasoline, somewhere else...
Relations forged with money
have money as their blood.
Your wealth buys the labour
of people who need the rent
for houses you own
you let them live in.
They fix the road and smile
looking at my legs.
My whiteness makes
me make sense
in Pauanui
where nothing has ever happened
we can believe, guilt free, and rest.
What we have here
is a model community.
The old are cared for
the young entertained.
There’s no reason
to be anxious
except the terror
emanates from the ground
of a ghost town
with jewelled appendages
on dull houses
with too many rooms.
that travel down tarseal
to retire under blue
and emerald mountains.
Wetlands are preserved
so we can enjoy
the uncompromised habitat.
White. White. It’s a haven.
Everything we eat
is from the store
and the jetskis roar
this is what land is for:
an abstract use
taking up slack energy
we needed when we
were still animals.
I’ve educated myself
into a corner.
Money’s disproportions
swell the power of our house.
The hills here are fantastical.
They make the playground
look crazy
even though it’s not
the plastic trash
growing up in council flats
- even the perfectly smooth
cement of the skatepark
(hardly tagged)
can’t compete.
In this bright white light
rich people are nice
when they go by on bikes
in their biplanes
on the golf course
walking their spoilt
dogs and kids.
The wives seem nervous –
what a waste
of privilege.
It’s so comforting
like health, easy to forget
when you’ve got it
and the destitute drink
gasoline, somewhere else...
Relations forged with money
have money as their blood.
Your wealth buys the labour
of people who need the rent
for houses you own
you let them live in.
They fix the road and smile
looking at my legs.
My whiteness makes
me make sense
in Pauanui
where nothing has ever happened
we can believe, guilt free, and rest.
What we have here
is a model community.
The old are cared for
the young entertained.
There’s no reason
to be anxious
except the terror
emanates from the ground
of a ghost town
with jewelled appendages
on dull houses
with too many rooms.
10 fl. Inches
say it with
words. plastic is one thing u can't fake.
work makes a web in which we wait
for chance to deliver fuel for narrative
one of these long and lonely nights
you'll spit out the cliche you now eat.
pert aphorisms light up our eyes
trickling metal in the gutter thickens
my throat is clear
the bruise on the cheekbone
echoes an earlier ego wound.
jesus takes the world too personally
our little crimes show
free choice takes more time than
day allows. we're nothing
but taught nerves and language
the howling dog feels like caught wolf
we were not ourselves
history is an accumulation
of bits to put to use
words. plastic is one thing u can't fake.
work makes a web in which we wait
for chance to deliver fuel for narrative
one of these long and lonely nights
you'll spit out the cliche you now eat.
pert aphorisms light up our eyes
trickling metal in the gutter thickens
my throat is clear
the bruise on the cheekbone
echoes an earlier ego wound.
jesus takes the world too personally
our little crimes show
free choice takes more time than
day allows. we're nothing
but taught nerves and language
the howling dog feels like caught wolf
we were not ourselves
history is an accumulation
of bits to put to use
the dark
The crazy bad moods
we cultivate to justify
our self-obsessions
allow us all this
familiar excess.
When I start up
the walls disappear,
windows blow
our brains out with
such vicious clear flatness -
hallucinating some dense
dimensions to the outside’s romance
What was it I was thinking?
What you said? sounds tumble
like a bottle down steps
smash into coherent
sentences. Paranoia
keeps me safe from everything
that isn’t it.
When we fall into the sun
finally, there’ll be
no more darkness.
we cultivate to justify
our self-obsessions
allow us all this
familiar excess.
When I start up
the walls disappear,
windows blow
our brains out with
such vicious clear flatness -
hallucinating some dense
dimensions to the outside’s romance
What was it I was thinking?
What you said? sounds tumble
like a bottle down steps
smash into coherent
sentences. Paranoia
keeps me safe from everything
that isn’t it.
When we fall into the sun
finally, there’ll be
no more darkness.
The Growth
It was an act of defiance
I laboured under.
The animal body examined itself.
From under the rags of self-loathing
I found out the holy itch
and struck out after it
I got a baby blowing inside me
stretching a hole into my skin
for its animal to fit.
It had a physical effect
as the brain dried out in my head :
all the gifts my culture gave me -
reason, ego, spirit, will -
cut up like a side of beef
now the flesh grows back between.
I asked a hundred mothers
and they all told me this same thing:
mind shrinking back
under skull’s grin
will never rule again.
I laboured under.
The animal body examined itself.
From under the rags of self-loathing
I found out the holy itch
and struck out after it
I got a baby blowing inside me
stretching a hole into my skin
for its animal to fit.
It had a physical effect
as the brain dried out in my head :
all the gifts my culture gave me -
reason, ego, spirit, will -
cut up like a side of beef
now the flesh grows back between.
I asked a hundred mothers
and they all told me this same thing:
mind shrinking back
under skull’s grin
will never rule again.
Drag
In our most difficult shoes
we reneg all our attempts
to eradicate gender borders.
A lisp's magnetism makes
it much easier to cross space
in my edible skin suit
& her hair. Her hair. In sex wars
it's grinding time we're up against.
We bleed attention
and feed the water.
I'm singular. We're single.
I compose odes to my gold sandals.
We are a little black hole mouth
feeding across the face of the city.
These simulations
stimulate us, creatures
become men during the dance.
Set up opposing postures,
drink out this heat into night.
Back home, I take off my bangles,
dip myself into the speed of sleep.
I am littered with impressions
I trace internally, as they fade
smooth, rested, plump,
the loud marks of femininity
wipe clean away.
we reneg all our attempts
to eradicate gender borders.
A lisp's magnetism makes
it much easier to cross space
in my edible skin suit
& her hair. Her hair. In sex wars
it's grinding time we're up against.
We bleed attention
and feed the water.
I'm singular. We're single.
I compose odes to my gold sandals.
We are a little black hole mouth
feeding across the face of the city.
These simulations
stimulate us, creatures
become men during the dance.
Set up opposing postures,
drink out this heat into night.
Back home, I take off my bangles,
dip myself into the speed of sleep.
I am littered with impressions
I trace internally, as they fade
smooth, rested, plump,
the loud marks of femininity
wipe clean away.
OUT OF ORDER.
These lines are
This is our very best dystopic mess.
Hold the note while it devalues.
You concentrate on deformity
on the crass curiosities of decay
disfigurement, distortion, chaos.
The squalor in your spirit
is carelessly tended, which
accelerates your character development.
The fingertips are gender positions.
Some genes persist by lucky powers
and chance and well, here you are.
Don’t fall for your own charisma
- but you have, you have to.
The work convinces me of its necessity
like a palm to the cheek, either fast
or soft depending on how well
I’m learning. Precious, ornate terrors
await those without real ones.
Nobody is starving in our street.
Ennui sets the youth reeling.
Metaphors attack you in your sleep
and you wake thick tongued and blinded
with belligerent meanings.
All the drugs, the super cool kids
on the run from their family mansions
make themselves available to the concrete
art. The illness, receding, leaves our eyes bright.
The world is awash in wasted brilliance.
How crazy were we to think
this mode of transport would be effective?
You’ve finally been imperfected.
Anything that gets made in passion stays
in the current second, keeps getting invented
as long as we both shall live.
What I miss most is your early work.
This is our very best dystopic mess.
Hold the note while it devalues.
You concentrate on deformity
on the crass curiosities of decay
disfigurement, distortion, chaos.
The squalor in your spirit
is carelessly tended, which
accelerates your character development.
The fingertips are gender positions.
Some genes persist by lucky powers
and chance and well, here you are.
Don’t fall for your own charisma
- but you have, you have to.
The work convinces me of its necessity
like a palm to the cheek, either fast
or soft depending on how well
I’m learning. Precious, ornate terrors
await those without real ones.
Nobody is starving in our street.
Ennui sets the youth reeling.
Metaphors attack you in your sleep
and you wake thick tongued and blinded
with belligerent meanings.
All the drugs, the super cool kids
on the run from their family mansions
make themselves available to the concrete
art. The illness, receding, leaves our eyes bright.
The world is awash in wasted brilliance.
How crazy were we to think
this mode of transport would be effective?
You’ve finally been imperfected.
Anything that gets made in passion stays
in the current second, keeps getting invented
as long as we both shall live.
What I miss most is your early work.
Hamilton
Mist is thick around us.
I weigh words out onto a page.
So this is the land
that was confiscated.
In 1868 the town was laid
out on cultivations, on forest, on swamp
on a detailed map, sent back
to the Mother Country.
The first “settlers”
who’d fought their way here
mostly couldn’t prosper
couldn’t garden, couldn’t get work
- walked off, back to Auckland.
My neighbour says
his hapu taught
the ones who stayed
how to make huts, to get food
(this isn’t mentioned in the books)
We’ve chosen a house to rent
at the edge of that early block
by the old town belt
now a marae, a school, a velodrome
acres of grass, the deerstalker’s club
- next year, when they get the money
the motorway goes through.
My family came north
a couple of generations after
the invasion, and generations
after that, to prosper.
It’s warm here and the soil’s rich.
I’m the child of the future
in whose name
the work has been done.
Today, I can look at the sun direct
through thin layers of white
cloud that lies over between us
drops of water fill the air like static.
My parents left. I’ve tried
to too, but here I sit
writing poetry, prospering
in the city’s glittering vision
& the milk in my coffee, the corn
- oh jewel of the Waikato.
We come back. We come back.
History persists
in every one of us.
I weigh words out onto a page.
So this is the land
that was confiscated.
In 1868 the town was laid
out on cultivations, on forest, on swamp
on a detailed map, sent back
to the Mother Country.
The first “settlers”
who’d fought their way here
mostly couldn’t prosper
couldn’t garden, couldn’t get work
- walked off, back to Auckland.
My neighbour says
his hapu taught
the ones who stayed
how to make huts, to get food
(this isn’t mentioned in the books)
We’ve chosen a house to rent
at the edge of that early block
by the old town belt
now a marae, a school, a velodrome
acres of grass, the deerstalker’s club
- next year, when they get the money
the motorway goes through.
My family came north
a couple of generations after
the invasion, and generations
after that, to prosper.
It’s warm here and the soil’s rich.
I’m the child of the future
in whose name
the work has been done.
Today, I can look at the sun direct
through thin layers of white
cloud that lies over between us
drops of water fill the air like static.
My parents left. I’ve tried
to too, but here I sit
writing poetry, prospering
in the city’s glittering vision
& the milk in my coffee, the corn
- oh jewel of the Waikato.
We come back. We come back.
History persists
in every one of us.
Dry / drty
the ideology's all thru me now.
To be distressed about
being stuck in the world of signs
is so late nineties.
We burn off, fat
tyres squeal like girls.
symbilosis getting the horn
dreamage of good hope
disturbution here is a body
cosmonautical emptied for your play
acherish
clit-locked
thoughts are weak nails
Tv shelters me, it feeds
in to the living room, the way
the supermarket keeps you from fields
or our heads caught scrolling
the book's grammatical beat
safe fron the mess of
the concrete
brittle
florid hoha
I fat right in there.
You must push yourself
back into place.
You must pace yourself
up and down rooms
the smell of burning hair in the shed
an abandoned landscape
ripe with families
ALL NEW ISSUES
The relation is cleaned by money.
Economics has no ethical
language you could question it in.
panicea
fur coats fall
the shaken city
bruising and abruptly more kind.
emptinest
Your mouth's an act of violence
centuries of self-hate
accumulate in your hips
pornopathy mathesocial
my presence is tence
Meaning's an illusion
with consequences.
Spring's prickling
giving me fat lips, broken nails
lassitude in the face of order
speed in dreams
a sustained note taking
shape sharpens
ablaze. The trick
is learning how to live
with what we know.
To be distressed about
being stuck in the world of signs
is so late nineties.
We burn off, fat
tyres squeal like girls.
symbilosis getting the horn
dreamage of good hope
disturbution here is a body
cosmonautical emptied for your play
acherish
clit-locked
thoughts are weak nails
Tv shelters me, it feeds
in to the living room, the way
the supermarket keeps you from fields
or our heads caught scrolling
the book's grammatical beat
safe fron the mess of
the concrete
brittle
florid hoha
I fat right in there.
You must push yourself
back into place.
You must pace yourself
up and down rooms
the smell of burning hair in the shed
an abandoned landscape
ripe with families
ALL NEW ISSUES
The relation is cleaned by money.
Economics has no ethical
language you could question it in.
panicea
fur coats fall
the shaken city
bruising and abruptly more kind.
emptinest
Your mouth's an act of violence
centuries of self-hate
accumulate in your hips
pornopathy mathesocial
my presence is tence
Meaning's an illusion
with consequences.
Spring's prickling
giving me fat lips, broken nails
lassitude in the face of order
speed in dreams
a sustained note taking
shape sharpens
ablaze. The trick
is learning how to live
with what we know.
Wingettes
The voice of my addictions trails away this morning
bored of the lack of recognition
waiting low for a better moment.
We all know our multiplying sides get into messes.
You fight yourself for a long time, then head down
Cuba St with a golf club, just going for windows.
We turn to stone and crumble simultaneously.
This is the age of aging. What riches
have you laid up inside, for later?
We have to watch our words dripping off the paintings
failing to reach your thighs, misplacing their keys again
shatter into a shape of safety glass.
vanity. humility and words that stick
onto your acts, interpreting
shyness, overthinking, hesitation, stories of loss,
the internal struggles that tire you so much
you can’t go outside, so this protects you
The truth is something else, nobody knows what,
but a strong theory gives a sense of control
which feels like empowerment
This obsession releases you from the rest.
Basket your eggs. There’s so much too much
to sense let alone resist, and nobody else seems to notice.
They sleepwalk the steps and drink
themselves to joy at gigs and accept
the humiliation of the city’s needs, the cheap talk,
this romantic craving that wipes out the original
so it can keep existing. You shut your face and work
on the sensibility of a tiny portion of the reclamation
project guarded in our hearts, like a fortress or a zoo.
Being a human is incredible.
Being human is a crazy distance
from everything that can’t imagine us.
There’s nothing at all we can do except continue.
bored of the lack of recognition
waiting low for a better moment.
We all know our multiplying sides get into messes.
You fight yourself for a long time, then head down
Cuba St with a golf club, just going for windows.
We turn to stone and crumble simultaneously.
This is the age of aging. What riches
have you laid up inside, for later?
We have to watch our words dripping off the paintings
failing to reach your thighs, misplacing their keys again
shatter into a shape of safety glass.
vanity. humility and words that stick
onto your acts, interpreting
shyness, overthinking, hesitation, stories of loss,
the internal struggles that tire you so much
you can’t go outside, so this protects you
The truth is something else, nobody knows what,
but a strong theory gives a sense of control
which feels like empowerment
This obsession releases you from the rest.
Basket your eggs. There’s so much too much
to sense let alone resist, and nobody else seems to notice.
They sleepwalk the steps and drink
themselves to joy at gigs and accept
the humiliation of the city’s needs, the cheap talk,
this romantic craving that wipes out the original
so it can keep existing. You shut your face and work
on the sensibility of a tiny portion of the reclamation
project guarded in our hearts, like a fortress or a zoo.
Being a human is incredible.
Being human is a crazy distance
from everything that can’t imagine us.
There’s nothing at all we can do except continue.
Manifesto
The sky’s inscrutable
turning all colours
before my very eyes
and back
to grey, turning itself
to black
under the evening’s
influence.
So, it’s been said.
So we’ve got to
say it all again
but with our words
and especially because
what comes out of our
structuring logics
has the keys
- desires to eat us -
before we’ve recorded
all the ways light hits
cloud travelling at speed
out over the sea
and your face to me
does things
everyone knows but
but but oh -
oh, the details.
The details bend my fingers
into pohutukawa
blossom arrangements
just when I’m wondering
how the world might
end.
It’s miraculous
again, again
again…
turning all colours
before my very eyes
and back
to grey, turning itself
to black
under the evening’s
influence.
So, it’s been said.
So we’ve got to
say it all again
but with our words
and especially because
what comes out of our
structuring logics
has the keys
- desires to eat us -
before we’ve recorded
all the ways light hits
cloud travelling at speed
out over the sea
and your face to me
does things
everyone knows but
but but oh -
oh, the details.
The details bend my fingers
into pohutukawa
blossom arrangements
just when I’m wondering
how the world might
end.
It’s miraculous
again, again
again…
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